I MUST confess- I am no longer fearful of the virus. I am no longer fearful of what it can do, for I have seen what it has already done. Divided friends and family, taken the lives of many, devastated downtown's all across America, just to name a few.
I MUST confess- The fear that I had in the beginning is no longer there because now I have faith. I have faith in the plan. Do I have trust in our nation's leaders? Not really. While I'm being totally honest, I have more trust in our local leaders than I do the higher-ups. Why is that? I know their hearts.
I MUST confess- My belief is that there are many agendas at hand. That is why none of this really makes sense. From the beginning I was told it was going to be long term. "Think long-term HE said-" and so we did.
I MUST confess- It's time for us all to go back to work. We have done what we needed to do. Some of us took action really quickly for others it took a little more time, but seeing what I see today, it's time to get back to...
In 2001 I was an 19 year old kid. I was roofer. Not just any roofer. I was a roofer in New Hampshire. If you have never been to NH in the winter, it's cold. REALLY COLD. That means when it's cold and you're a roofer that works outside, you work outside in the cold. This was my mask I wore in the cold.
I can remember fingers freezing, back hurting, 40 ft up in the air walking across ice covered rooftops as the wind blew -15 degree winter wind down my back, nose running, knees chattering COLD. I worked for $15 an hr.
That was a good job.
Sacrificed alot for that dollar.
Being a roofer taught me a ton.
At one point I remember hanging down a roof at midnight with a rope tightened around my waist (so I didn't fall) in the middle of a snow storm breaking the ice in a gutter with a pick ax. I was paid $20 an hr for that adventure.
How times have changed. It taught me to work hard. Don't complain when the tough times come. They always come. It taught me to stay positive. It...
The decision to change my life was quite easy. It made it even easier once I truly recognized the exact reason why choosing sobriety was the most important thing I could do with my life.
It was my wife and my two children.
Since 2004 it's always been about this. Sure I had struggles and challenges along the way. I ended up in therapy for about a half a year. Doctor's appointment after doctor's appointment they told me if I continued on this road it would surely mean a young death. Now I'm not much of a gambler at least the vegas-type but I am a risk-taker.
Little did I know choosing sobriety and running down this path that I am currently on was going to be the biggest risk I had ever taken in my life. Now that I'm miles down this journey I can say without a doubt it was the best decision I have made in my whole life. Now there were some other decisions that surely held a candle to this one but sobriety? That choice took me to a whole new level.
I do not dare say that sobriety and...
Yesterday I went to a friends house and we devised a quick plan to go for a run. I have to use the f-word very sparingly here because for some weird reason he doesn't like to call us friends. So maybe I'll just say my buddies house. Anyway, like I said we devised the plan to go for a quick run.
On this run he said the words "to be honest" after that he started to talk to me about a conversation. When he was done talking I said "why do you say to be honest?" His answer back was short but mainly it was to protect the brutal honesty that he has possession of during conversations. As we continued to run and chat about this discussion he said out loud "it's pretty amazing how you get the things out of me that you do. You allow me to drop the wall that I normally have and say things that I don't normally say or do."
I asked "why is that?" He replied back "well I think I just feel kind of safe, like the way that you question is not with any alternative motive but curiosity."
For the rest...
"Mommy, daddy, I don't deserve this, can I give it to the little girl?"
In a moment of pure empathy and generosity with a simple good deed from our daughter Lanie, our lives changed forever. Less than a week before we left the U.S. for a trip to Thailand our daughter Lanie purchased her alpaca Gerald from a store downtown called Therapy.
She loved it because it was soft. She carried it with her on the plane, to restaurants, practically every place we went, and she even slept with it! She had plans to write a story that was appropriately titled "The adventures of Gerald and Cheetah." (Cheetah is Malia's stuffed animal to be shared later.)
Her storyline was about these two pets who were going to go on all these adventures while in Thailand and then she could print a book on Amazon, but the feelings that overcame her was about to put a halt on that plan!
After spending time at the elephant sanctuary the daughter of the caretakers had grown a liking to Gerald as...
Doi Inthanon in Thailand is the highest point in the country. We were able to reach the top which is 8,415 feet above sea level by foot.
Most of which was a fairly long intricate drive to the point in the Thai Highlands. It is a mountainous natural region in northern Thailand and is an extension of the mountain ranges that connect Laos, Burma and China, ultimately linking them all to the Himalayan mountains.
The elevation at this point left us with a little shortness of breath but it wasn't too difficult. After a quick hike around the highest point we found ourselves on our first adventure experiencing the high jungles of the mountain range.
Immediately we were surrounded by plant life like we had never seen before and definitely animals that went unseen and unheard from as well. This was our first adventure into our Thailand experience and it was one with breathtaking views which also included a walk around the king and queens private temples.
It was the first time...
Standing in a Thailand jungle the moment happened. Malia looked at the elephant as if to say "I am here for you and you don't scare me." The elephant replied with a beautiful display of affection.
It was a pretty epic moment of our lives, it was as if she was meant to be there. Maybe she found her calling, maybe her calling found her? She was happy. Her face glowed like we have never seen it shine before. As a father and mother of two, it was one of those moments that we strived for, you know the moment when we think, "WE MADE THE RIGHT DECISION!"
The location was desolate and was protected by the caretakers. There were only 6 of us, 5 caretakers and our guide. There was no riding of any elephants and the staff took care of the animals as if they were family. The elephants were the center of attention and we gave them that respect.
Feeding was close and intimate. We used Thai words and sounds to connect with the elephants while handing them food. These elephants...
"The number one reason why most people don't get what they want is because they don't know what they want." T. Harv Eker
Even when they actually know what they want, they don't start doing the things that will get them to what they want.
Most people are afraid.
Most are afraid that if they actually did the things they knew they needed to do, they may get something they didn't know they needed.
Most people are afraid of success.
It's easier to stay the same. It's easier to say "They don't know what they're talking about. I'm right you're wrong." Then another year goes by and yet again nothing changes. That's easy. The harder thing to do is to sit down and write out exactly what you want, then start taking action on all the things that you wrote down. That is commitment.
That's hard. It's hard because it makes you take a long look in the mirror and if you're being honest with yourself it lets you see that you let yourself go. You let yourself become complacent. You let yourself live...
I was listening to a podcast the other day and the podcaster was talking about environments and habits. He went on to discuss how important environments are and how they can negatively or positively affect our lives. One of the stories he discussed was how he was at a party and the three friends he was standing around with all had very strict nutritional plans, his was not as strict of course however when the host came around with birthday cake they asked his three friends before him if they wanted a cake? His three friends immediately said no and by the time the host got to him, even though he desired the cake before since his friends said no he decided to say no as well! He recognized the people that he was hanging out with allowed him to make a decision that was probably better for him anyways.
This podcast really got me thinking about the process of environment. This has been a running message over the past several years from me of how important environments are. I've delivered...
“You know Keven your story is not for everyone, especially the way you choose to tell it.” As she stated those words I sat for a moment, soaking in the sun rays that were hitting us while we hiked on a trail. “I understand that sweetheart but you know what? It’s not about them and besides, if I shared the story and it inspired just one person to make a difference then I did my job, I served a purpose.”
So it began. The sharing of all things private, embarrassing, vulnerable, ego-etic, poetic and any other etic there could be. It began with a simple conversation, then a deep story, a hashtag was used once or twice, a picture and video were posted a couple of thousand times and words and ideas were spread globally for years until the crashing halt.
“You’re what? Removing yourself from consuming social media? Why?”
“Well, sweetheart, it’s time. I have been entirely consumed, greatly obsessed and very addicted to this thing we...